Day 352 Eventhough dizzy from the painkillers, I decided to follow through with plans to take Mom to our sandvolleyball tournament to watch my team play. It honestly was a memorable bonding time! I never realized that my mom really likes volleyball or that she had played in school. We had a lot of fun watching an cheering them on together.
Day 353 Our group was hanging out and, after eating, I started getting a piercing pain in my side again. I was so scared that it was something serious! Instead of toughing it out alone, or just asking them to be praying for me, I claimed the moment and asked them to lay hands on me right then and there. It has been at least a year or two since I've done such a thing, and their prayers really brought me peace.
Day 354 A friend from the past sent me a thoughtful e-mailing checking up on my surgery. I opened the e-mail to reply and then thought, "I haven't talked to him in a long time--I should just call and tell him the awesome God story in person!" So I did, though I had to leave a message and wait for a reply. When we finally chatted, I was glad I chose the more personal route, and I was encouraged as I recounted the Lord's faithfulness and protection during the emergency.
Day 355 Another doctor, another frustrating appointment. This time, it was my eye doctor. Gumption kicked in and I addressed the issue. It didn't go very well, as the doctor's response was, "You just need to stay out of it--we're trying to find the best prescription for you..." Although it wasn't the response I'd hoped for, I was glad that I'd at least been mature enough to express my frustation in their handling of the matter.
Day 356 Tonight my mom and I laughed together so much--something that doesn't happen often with "mother" and "daughter." I had been working on a song I'm writing and decided to ask her to sing the duet part with me. We tried to record ourselves several times and ended up giggling most of the time. This is a memory I'll remember for a long time!
Day 357 Freedom! I was finally well enough to make it on my own! On the drive back from riding with my mom to meet my dad and get my car back, I blasted my Michael Buble cd and my friend Nicole and I sang at the top of our lungs, grooving in our seats and having a good time. I was back to the land of the living!!
Day 358 I had fallen. I needed encouragement and prayer. After the church service I went up for prayer and expressed my need for physical healing. As they prayed, I felt prompted by the Holy Spirit to be completely vulnerable and honest and ask them to pray for what I really needed prayer about. With total openess I told them about my struggle and asked them to pray for me a second time. I've never done such a thing before in my life, but walking out of the church I felt lifted.
Lesson: eventually, at the end of the day, you will find that you claimed without realizing it
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
Summer Part 4
Day 345 Said YES when a random volleyball team was missing a female player and asked me to play for their game. It was a blast, and definitely a challenge for my confidence!
Day 346 Standing at my kitchen sink doing dishes, I found myself staring out the window at the gorgeous day. Knowing the summer was quickly ending, I called up a friend to see if she wanted to go canoeing (a summer activity I've wanted to do for the past few summers!). The lake was peaceful and still. Little did I know what chaos was coming the next day!
Day 347 Severe abdominal pain and constant throwing up found me making friends with my bathroom sink. This was the first time in my life (literally) that I'd ever thrown up. After over four hours of trying to survive, I knew I needed to brave my fears and go to the emergency room. Appendicitis landed me in surgery that night and a 24-hour hospital stay. So much for our first big family vacation in 17 years!! We were to leave the following morning.
Day 348 Going home from the hospital, we had go through the drive-through at Walgreens to pick up my medications. The girl in the car next to us had the cutest dog, so when she saw me smiling and pointing, she rolled down her window so I could see him. Claim? Strike up a convo, and ask her what kind of puppy he was! Schnauser.
Day 349 It was two days after my surgery and I was bleeding whenever I went to the bathroom, which hadn't happend before. As directed previously by the nurse, I called the doctor. She was completely rude--talking down to me and interrupting me with an answer before hearing the entire question. In the past, I'd get intimidated in such a situation, accept the limited answers I'd received, and end the conversation. But, during this journey of claiming I'd say I've found a little thing called "gumption." I stood my ground and firmly yet professionally reworded or reasked my questions. Amazingly, I finally got my questions answered and hung up--educated and annoyed.
Day 350 This has been such a refreshing summer--one of growth, healthy habits, and self-discovery. In attempt to hold on to these progress on stepping stones, I decided to make a list of the priorities, habits, and daily decisions I made this summer that brought about such changes. Hopefully, reading it throughout the school year will help me maintain this transformation!
Day 351 Something new: let a guy friend come over and hang out with my mom and me even though the rest of "the group" wasn't available. We had a blast laughing together, sharing stories, and watching "The Bounty Hunter." Praise the Lord for male friendships!
Lesson: Eventually, claiming becomes natural!
Day 346 Standing at my kitchen sink doing dishes, I found myself staring out the window at the gorgeous day. Knowing the summer was quickly ending, I called up a friend to see if she wanted to go canoeing (a summer activity I've wanted to do for the past few summers!). The lake was peaceful and still. Little did I know what chaos was coming the next day!
Day 347 Severe abdominal pain and constant throwing up found me making friends with my bathroom sink. This was the first time in my life (literally) that I'd ever thrown up. After over four hours of trying to survive, I knew I needed to brave my fears and go to the emergency room. Appendicitis landed me in surgery that night and a 24-hour hospital stay. So much for our first big family vacation in 17 years!! We were to leave the following morning.
Day 348 Going home from the hospital, we had go through the drive-through at Walgreens to pick up my medications. The girl in the car next to us had the cutest dog, so when she saw me smiling and pointing, she rolled down her window so I could see him. Claim? Strike up a convo, and ask her what kind of puppy he was! Schnauser.
Day 349 It was two days after my surgery and I was bleeding whenever I went to the bathroom, which hadn't happend before. As directed previously by the nurse, I called the doctor. She was completely rude--talking down to me and interrupting me with an answer before hearing the entire question. In the past, I'd get intimidated in such a situation, accept the limited answers I'd received, and end the conversation. But, during this journey of claiming I'd say I've found a little thing called "gumption." I stood my ground and firmly yet professionally reworded or reasked my questions. Amazingly, I finally got my questions answered and hung up--educated and annoyed.
Day 350 This has been such a refreshing summer--one of growth, healthy habits, and self-discovery. In attempt to hold on to these progress on stepping stones, I decided to make a list of the priorities, habits, and daily decisions I made this summer that brought about such changes. Hopefully, reading it throughout the school year will help me maintain this transformation!
Day 351 Something new: let a guy friend come over and hang out with my mom and me even though the rest of "the group" wasn't available. We had a blast laughing together, sharing stories, and watching "The Bounty Hunter." Praise the Lord for male friendships!
Lesson: Eventually, claiming becomes natural!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Summer Part 3
Day 338 Time to get all my debt under control! Typed up a list of my smallest debts and came up with a plan of how pay them off A.S.A.P.! I printed it off and put it in a place where I'd see it often to help remind me to be financially responsible and get free!
Day 339 Ever since I joined the church choir, one of the older women who I've become friends with has been inviting me to various art shows/galleries that include her artwork. Today I finally went! When I left, I felt like I'd walked through a journey of my soul. Each artist had included a typed description of the inspiration and process behind their piece, and it brought the artwork alive and left me totally inspired to live and to create. I can't even describe how great it felt to call her on the way home and tell her that I'd just gone to see the exhibit... Maybe it is better to give than to receive!
Day 340 I was beaten down in shame, discouragement, and fear. Tonight at choir the director/pastor stopped rehearsal to give a short message (which he does sometimes); it was all about fear/worry. He read several verses about it and then did something that I haven't ever seen him do. He said, "I want anyone here that is struggling with fear or worry to stand up right now and we're going to pray for you." Without even taking time to think, I jumped to my feet, and noticed I was the first one up. Like a ripple effect, people across the choir started to stand. Tears came as they laid hands on me and prayed. I ended up sharing my struggles with the woman I described above. This whole experience showed me the growth that has come through this journey of claiming--more and more, I am seizing moments without debate or hesitation. I needed this!!!
Day 341 How often have you been driving on a scenic route and just wanted to pull over and take it all in? I'm sure if you're like me, it's been hundreds of times. On my journey home to my parents' today, I decided to take the time to take it in; I'd just driven around a curve to find beautiful green hills and fields on my left, grasses and trees lightly swaying. I pulled the car over to the side of the road, opened my window, and stared, trying to remember that beautiful picture. Though this probably only last five minutes due to the heat pouring in my window, it was enough to enjoy the serenity that only the beautiful outdoors can bring.
Day 342 A rainy, lazy day at my parents house; the perfect opportunity to escape into a good book! I decided to lay there all day, guilt-free, and read without letting myself feel like I was wasting the entire day. This was a big step for me because when I go home I usually feel bad taking time for myself. I must say: This was wonderful! Do this!!
Day 343 Tired. Not feeling social, and especially not feeling like meeting new people and having to make conversation. You know how it is. Tonight I was to go to a birthday party for a new girl friend where I knew I wouldn't know anyone. I was tempted to back out, but knew I needed to claim it and be there for her, especially since there were only going to bve four or five of us there. I ended up having a bonding conversation with a girl there who is also older and single, having digestion/health issues, and dealing with the stresses of major finanical struggles. The Lord encouraged me by using me to encourage her. It was a good reminder that God can and WILL use the struggles we go through for His glory!
Day 344 How many times do we get asked, "How are you?" in a day, and answer with some canned response that totally covers over our true mood or emotional state? And how many times do we ask someone how they're doing and then not really take the time to find out? I was presented with this opportunity this morning at church... Another single girl that I'm getting to know through choir was walking by me, and when I greeted her and asked her how she was, her response did not match the sadness in her face. I stopped walking, and asked, "Are you sure? You don't sound like you're okay." As soon as I said it, her eyes filled with tears and I reached out to hug her. She shared her struggle with loneliness and just feeling really alone. I have been there! I tried to encourage her the best I could and offered my number incase she ever wanted to hang out. Lord, make me more aware of others and give me Your heart for them!!
Lesson: life is about giving your life away
Day 339 Ever since I joined the church choir, one of the older women who I've become friends with has been inviting me to various art shows/galleries that include her artwork. Today I finally went! When I left, I felt like I'd walked through a journey of my soul. Each artist had included a typed description of the inspiration and process behind their piece, and it brought the artwork alive and left me totally inspired to live and to create. I can't even describe how great it felt to call her on the way home and tell her that I'd just gone to see the exhibit... Maybe it is better to give than to receive!
Day 340 I was beaten down in shame, discouragement, and fear. Tonight at choir the director/pastor stopped rehearsal to give a short message (which he does sometimes); it was all about fear/worry. He read several verses about it and then did something that I haven't ever seen him do. He said, "I want anyone here that is struggling with fear or worry to stand up right now and we're going to pray for you." Without even taking time to think, I jumped to my feet, and noticed I was the first one up. Like a ripple effect, people across the choir started to stand. Tears came as they laid hands on me and prayed. I ended up sharing my struggles with the woman I described above. This whole experience showed me the growth that has come through this journey of claiming--more and more, I am seizing moments without debate or hesitation. I needed this!!!
Day 341 How often have you been driving on a scenic route and just wanted to pull over and take it all in? I'm sure if you're like me, it's been hundreds of times. On my journey home to my parents' today, I decided to take the time to take it in; I'd just driven around a curve to find beautiful green hills and fields on my left, grasses and trees lightly swaying. I pulled the car over to the side of the road, opened my window, and stared, trying to remember that beautiful picture. Though this probably only last five minutes due to the heat pouring in my window, it was enough to enjoy the serenity that only the beautiful outdoors can bring.
Day 342 A rainy, lazy day at my parents house; the perfect opportunity to escape into a good book! I decided to lay there all day, guilt-free, and read without letting myself feel like I was wasting the entire day. This was a big step for me because when I go home I usually feel bad taking time for myself. I must say: This was wonderful! Do this!!
Day 343 Tired. Not feeling social, and especially not feeling like meeting new people and having to make conversation. You know how it is. Tonight I was to go to a birthday party for a new girl friend where I knew I wouldn't know anyone. I was tempted to back out, but knew I needed to claim it and be there for her, especially since there were only going to bve four or five of us there. I ended up having a bonding conversation with a girl there who is also older and single, having digestion/health issues, and dealing with the stresses of major finanical struggles. The Lord encouraged me by using me to encourage her. It was a good reminder that God can and WILL use the struggles we go through for His glory!
Day 344 How many times do we get asked, "How are you?" in a day, and answer with some canned response that totally covers over our true mood or emotional state? And how many times do we ask someone how they're doing and then not really take the time to find out? I was presented with this opportunity this morning at church... Another single girl that I'm getting to know through choir was walking by me, and when I greeted her and asked her how she was, her response did not match the sadness in her face. I stopped walking, and asked, "Are you sure? You don't sound like you're okay." As soon as I said it, her eyes filled with tears and I reached out to hug her. She shared her struggle with loneliness and just feeling really alone. I have been there! I tried to encourage her the best I could and offered my number incase she ever wanted to hang out. Lord, make me more aware of others and give me Your heart for them!!
Lesson: life is about giving your life away
Friday, June 25, 2010
School's Out! Part 3
Day 303 Had plans to meet at Starbucks with a new friend from choir. Wanted to be selfish and just do my own thing during the afternoon, and was under spiritual attack about getting together with her for some reason. I took time to worship and get out of my bad mood; we had such a good time, and a very encouraging, bonding conversation about life, struggles, choir, our calling, and the Lord! I'm so glad I went!!
Day 304 Today I finally checked off a three-year goal from my mental "To Do" list; I visited our local public library (known as the best library in the United States) and got a library card!!
Day 305 Since last summer when I discovered our local beach/pool I wanted to get a summer pass, but whenever it came to mind I either didn't have the time or didn't have the money. Today I had both, purchased my much-awaited pass, and enjoyed the afternoon lounging poolside with some girl friends.
Day 306 This weekend is the big wedding!! Today the bride called to see if I could come a day early, meaning TODAY, and help her move into her new apartment. Claimed it, enjoyed it! It was fun to have some time alone with the bride, see their new place, and just be there for her and her husband-to-be.
Day 307 Girls can be catty. At the bachelorette party today I had to remind myself that a particular girl was 10 years younger than me and to just be the bigger person. Slowly, kindness won out.
Day 308 Day before the wedding! The bride had planned to be baptised in water at NOON. I was tired, feeling lazy, and just exhausted from the run around. I honestly wanted to just stay home (well, at the apartment of the friend I was staying with) and just relax. I thought about the future and how I knew I'd look back and regret it if I wasn't there for such an important event. I got to meet so many of their friends and family that I've heard about all these years, and the presence of the Lord was so strong! They asked me to lead everyone in worship, and then the bride tearfully read a Psalm and expressed her love for Jesus. I was so proud of her and her fiance (I was their youth group mentor through jr. high and high school) and so glad I chose to join her close family and friends in support of her decision to go deeper with Jesus Christ.
Day 309 The WEDDING DAY! The bride and I left at 8:00am to make it downtown Milwaukee for our hear appointments on time. I was really tired from all the planning, running around, and events of the weekend, and prayed for strength for the day. When I went to the restroom, I passed a spa area with inviting cushioned beds with stacks of magazines in the lounge of the spa. It looked so comfortable and the peaceful spa music pulled me in. It'd be okay to use the spa, right? I laid down on the comfy bed, closed my eyes, and escaped into peaceful bliss. Though it was only for about five minutes, I got up rejuvinated and ready for the long day ahead.
Lesson: now's the time--do it!
Day 304 Today I finally checked off a three-year goal from my mental "To Do" list; I visited our local public library (known as the best library in the United States) and got a library card!!
Day 305 Since last summer when I discovered our local beach/pool I wanted to get a summer pass, but whenever it came to mind I either didn't have the time or didn't have the money. Today I had both, purchased my much-awaited pass, and enjoyed the afternoon lounging poolside with some girl friends.
Day 306 This weekend is the big wedding!! Today the bride called to see if I could come a day early, meaning TODAY, and help her move into her new apartment. Claimed it, enjoyed it! It was fun to have some time alone with the bride, see their new place, and just be there for her and her husband-to-be.
Day 307 Girls can be catty. At the bachelorette party today I had to remind myself that a particular girl was 10 years younger than me and to just be the bigger person. Slowly, kindness won out.
Day 308 Day before the wedding! The bride had planned to be baptised in water at NOON. I was tired, feeling lazy, and just exhausted from the run around. I honestly wanted to just stay home (well, at the apartment of the friend I was staying with) and just relax. I thought about the future and how I knew I'd look back and regret it if I wasn't there for such an important event. I got to meet so many of their friends and family that I've heard about all these years, and the presence of the Lord was so strong! They asked me to lead everyone in worship, and then the bride tearfully read a Psalm and expressed her love for Jesus. I was so proud of her and her fiance (I was their youth group mentor through jr. high and high school) and so glad I chose to join her close family and friends in support of her decision to go deeper with Jesus Christ.
Day 309 The WEDDING DAY! The bride and I left at 8:00am to make it downtown Milwaukee for our hear appointments on time. I was really tired from all the planning, running around, and events of the weekend, and prayed for strength for the day. When I went to the restroom, I passed a spa area with inviting cushioned beds with stacks of magazines in the lounge of the spa. It looked so comfortable and the peaceful spa music pulled me in. It'd be okay to use the spa, right? I laid down on the comfy bed, closed my eyes, and escaped into peaceful bliss. Though it was only for about five minutes, I got up rejuvinated and ready for the long day ahead.
Lesson: now's the time--do it!
Friday, June 18, 2010
School's Out! Part 1
Day 289 Have you ever tried fresh cherries? Not the sweet ones in the jar, but the real ones? At my brother's grillout today, my sister convinced me to try them (as she recently discovered them). Delicious! I couldn't stop popping them into my mouth! All these years I've been settling for second best.
Day 290 Why does Super Walmart have over 20 registers and only keep four or five lines open at a time?? Does anyone else get totally frustrated about this? Today my patience was being tested, and my perspective was challenged when the young guy infront of me was very patient and friendly with the cashier. It inspired me to change my mood;I chose to pray for him and for the cashier. It helped. A little.
Day 291 Choir practice, still trying to reach out to this particular girl. I must admit I gave up for a while and just gave her space, but tonight I decided to find a way to honestly compliment her. I noticed her toenails were painted a super cute peach color with little white flowers so I threw out the compliment and we talked a little. One step at a time, right?
Day 292 When I read in our church brochure about an upcoming missions trip to Georgia, I thought, "Why not??" I've never gone on one before. Have you? Today I called the church and left a message requesting more info about the trip. We'll see if it works out!!
Day 293 Tonight I was visiting some friends in Milwaukee and when I got back to their house from having dinner with a girl friend, several of their friends (who I've never met) were hanging out in the livingroom, relaxing and chatting. Somehow my passion for worship ministry came up and next thing I knew they were beggin me to sing one of the songs I've written. Usually I don't like performing "on the spot" but with this new journey of claiming, I found myself saying "sure" and I sang a song I'm working on about Psalm 40. I shared a little about the psalm and then sang it, and it really seemed to change the direction of the conversation--soon we were all talking about the Lord and how amazing He is. I guess you never know when God will use you!
Day 294 Today, as the Maid of Honor for an upcoming wedding, I threw a "Pretty in Pink" bridal shower for the bride. None of the bridesmaids could come, so I did almost everything by myself, which you know is quite stressful if you've ever helped with a shower before! I finally had to let go of my stress and frustrated mood--I didn't want it to ruin my day. So, I chose to do something about it instead of giving in to it. I grabbed some worship cd's from my car and blasted the music while I decorated. It took a lot of work to try to pray and thank the Lord, but I tried. Even just singing along helped. Thank you, Lord, for your faithfulness!
Day 295 A new friend from choir was having a grill-out/party today for passing her citizenship interview. I was feeling lazy and selfishly didn't want to go... Lounging around my house sounded more enjoyable for my Sunday afternoon, but I claimed it and had to reclaim it instead of backing out when it started pouring down rain. Praise the Lord that I went! He sent an angel to speak into me the words that I needed, the prayers that I needed, the GRACE that I needed. I left with the reminder that I am so loved by Jesus!
Lesson: when you choose to do actions that go against your mood, your mood will often follow it!
Day 290 Why does Super Walmart have over 20 registers and only keep four or five lines open at a time?? Does anyone else get totally frustrated about this? Today my patience was being tested, and my perspective was challenged when the young guy infront of me was very patient and friendly with the cashier. It inspired me to change my mood;I chose to pray for him and for the cashier. It helped. A little.
Day 291 Choir practice, still trying to reach out to this particular girl. I must admit I gave up for a while and just gave her space, but tonight I decided to find a way to honestly compliment her. I noticed her toenails were painted a super cute peach color with little white flowers so I threw out the compliment and we talked a little. One step at a time, right?
Day 292 When I read in our church brochure about an upcoming missions trip to Georgia, I thought, "Why not??" I've never gone on one before. Have you? Today I called the church and left a message requesting more info about the trip. We'll see if it works out!!
Day 293 Tonight I was visiting some friends in Milwaukee and when I got back to their house from having dinner with a girl friend, several of their friends (who I've never met) were hanging out in the livingroom, relaxing and chatting. Somehow my passion for worship ministry came up and next thing I knew they were beggin me to sing one of the songs I've written. Usually I don't like performing "on the spot" but with this new journey of claiming, I found myself saying "sure" and I sang a song I'm working on about Psalm 40. I shared a little about the psalm and then sang it, and it really seemed to change the direction of the conversation--soon we were all talking about the Lord and how amazing He is. I guess you never know when God will use you!
Day 294 Today, as the Maid of Honor for an upcoming wedding, I threw a "Pretty in Pink" bridal shower for the bride. None of the bridesmaids could come, so I did almost everything by myself, which you know is quite stressful if you've ever helped with a shower before! I finally had to let go of my stress and frustrated mood--I didn't want it to ruin my day. So, I chose to do something about it instead of giving in to it. I grabbed some worship cd's from my car and blasted the music while I decorated. It took a lot of work to try to pray and thank the Lord, but I tried. Even just singing along helped. Thank you, Lord, for your faithfulness!
Day 295 A new friend from choir was having a grill-out/party today for passing her citizenship interview. I was feeling lazy and selfishly didn't want to go... Lounging around my house sounded more enjoyable for my Sunday afternoon, but I claimed it and had to reclaim it instead of backing out when it started pouring down rain. Praise the Lord that I went! He sent an angel to speak into me the words that I needed, the prayers that I needed, the GRACE that I needed. I left with the reminder that I am so loved by Jesus!
Lesson: when you choose to do actions that go against your mood, your mood will often follow it!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Snapshots Part Five
(May 17-May 23)
Day 274 Something NEW. Registed online for my sister and I to attend our church's annual Girlfriends Night Out. The past two years whenever it was advertised at church I always thought it sounded really fun, but I never took the step to go. This year is the year!
Day 275 The middle school I teach at is a Title I school. Little parent involvement. Little student motivation. Our school did an incentive to get kids to class ontime, and today was the reward: an assembly featuring the Jesse White Tumblers!! I had a lot to get done at school and was wanting to just be focussed and productive, but I also knew I could be missing a great experience. So I went down to the gym, sat in the front row, and to be honest, was totally amazed and entertained. Have you ever seen them perform? If not, you should! This was a super fun "first" for me!
Day 276 Tonight at choir practice one of the men asked me how I ended up here in IL. I seized the moment and told him, in detail, how the Lord spoke to me to come, opened the door for my job just in time, made my heart to know He wanted me at this particular church, and what I've learned this far. It opened up a whole conversation that found us standing in the hallway sharing stories of our need and the Lord's faithfulness. I went home with a very grateful heart.
Day 277 Back to my school. The teachers at my schools work very independently; a "team" is not a good description of the atmosphere. Today I was walking by a veteran teacher's classroom (it's just around the corner from mine) and we started chatting about a student we share. He is one of my favorites and is great for me, though he is terrible for all of his other teachers. By terrible I mean really really bad. We talked for a long time, and when I started getting antsy to get back to my errands (it was after school and I just wanted to get done and go home) I had to keep reminding myself of what was more important. Several times. Isn't this what I know our school needs more of? Forty-five minutes later I was back in my room, closing down for the day. I left feeling pleased that I'd made a deeper connection with her.
Day 278 It finally came: "Girlfriends Night Out" at my church. There was over 450 women there! It was a blast introducing my sister to some of the friends I've started to make in choir (we all sat together), and was equally fun watching the pastors' "What Not to Wear" fashion show, the table decorating presentation, and an "easy cooking" demonstration. They had door prizes, and shortly after my sister and I both proclaimed that we never win anything, her raffle ticket number was called! And then, only a minute or two later, my raffle ticket number was called! We left with gifts valued over $75 each from Mario Triccoci!! It almost seemed like God was giving us a thumbs for finally making it to a church event. :) To top it off, the girl from choir that I've been "working on" is warming up, finally! She greeted me with a smile and gave me several compliments on my outfit/jewelry/etc. We all chatted and laughed the night away-the banquet room was completely empty of all decorations, food, and guests by the time we left. What a great night!
Day 279 I woke up to sun streaming through my window and the sound of birds chirping in the nearby tree. Saturday! Claim? Rollerblade! I used to rollerblad all the time, even in college, and a few years ago asked for some really expensive rollerblades for my birthday. I haven't gone in a year or two. Now's the time to get active, and pick up old hobbies. It jump-started my day with energy and excitement for summer. As I whizzed along, I took in "summer" all around me: the smell of freshly cut grass, sounds of birds chirping, vibrant landscapes of beautiful flowers, garages sales (I stopped at one, even on rollerblades!)... When I got home I laid on my bed to do a few stretches, and from that angle as I looked out the window I saw a bird's nest at the very top of my tree. I got up to peak out the window and I couldn't stop the smile luminating my face--the nest was filled with little baby birds and the mom was feeding them! I've never seen such an amazing part of nature! I found myself going back to watch the little family, even in the days following.
Day 280 Went to get a manicure and pedicure (with a guilt-free coupon) and chose to claim the moment by closing my eyes during just relaxing in the massaging chair while getting my pedicure. Just blocking out the surroundings and really appreciating the moment left me refreshed and my body totally calm.
Lesson: appreciate the moment for what it is
Day 274 Something NEW. Registed online for my sister and I to attend our church's annual Girlfriends Night Out. The past two years whenever it was advertised at church I always thought it sounded really fun, but I never took the step to go. This year is the year!
Day 275 The middle school I teach at is a Title I school. Little parent involvement. Little student motivation. Our school did an incentive to get kids to class ontime, and today was the reward: an assembly featuring the Jesse White Tumblers!! I had a lot to get done at school and was wanting to just be focussed and productive, but I also knew I could be missing a great experience. So I went down to the gym, sat in the front row, and to be honest, was totally amazed and entertained. Have you ever seen them perform? If not, you should! This was a super fun "first" for me!
Day 276 Tonight at choir practice one of the men asked me how I ended up here in IL. I seized the moment and told him, in detail, how the Lord spoke to me to come, opened the door for my job just in time, made my heart to know He wanted me at this particular church, and what I've learned this far. It opened up a whole conversation that found us standing in the hallway sharing stories of our need and the Lord's faithfulness. I went home with a very grateful heart.
Day 277 Back to my school. The teachers at my schools work very independently; a "team" is not a good description of the atmosphere. Today I was walking by a veteran teacher's classroom (it's just around the corner from mine) and we started chatting about a student we share. He is one of my favorites and is great for me, though he is terrible for all of his other teachers. By terrible I mean really really bad. We talked for a long time, and when I started getting antsy to get back to my errands (it was after school and I just wanted to get done and go home) I had to keep reminding myself of what was more important. Several times. Isn't this what I know our school needs more of? Forty-five minutes later I was back in my room, closing down for the day. I left feeling pleased that I'd made a deeper connection with her.
Day 278 It finally came: "Girlfriends Night Out" at my church. There was over 450 women there! It was a blast introducing my sister to some of the friends I've started to make in choir (we all sat together), and was equally fun watching the pastors' "What Not to Wear" fashion show, the table decorating presentation, and an "easy cooking" demonstration. They had door prizes, and shortly after my sister and I both proclaimed that we never win anything, her raffle ticket number was called! And then, only a minute or two later, my raffle ticket number was called! We left with gifts valued over $75 each from Mario Triccoci!! It almost seemed like God was giving us a thumbs for finally making it to a church event. :) To top it off, the girl from choir that I've been "working on" is warming up, finally! She greeted me with a smile and gave me several compliments on my outfit/jewelry/etc. We all chatted and laughed the night away-the banquet room was completely empty of all decorations, food, and guests by the time we left. What a great night!
Day 279 I woke up to sun streaming through my window and the sound of birds chirping in the nearby tree. Saturday! Claim? Rollerblade! I used to rollerblad all the time, even in college, and a few years ago asked for some really expensive rollerblades for my birthday. I haven't gone in a year or two. Now's the time to get active, and pick up old hobbies. It jump-started my day with energy and excitement for summer. As I whizzed along, I took in "summer" all around me: the smell of freshly cut grass, sounds of birds chirping, vibrant landscapes of beautiful flowers, garages sales (I stopped at one, even on rollerblades!)... When I got home I laid on my bed to do a few stretches, and from that angle as I looked out the window I saw a bird's nest at the very top of my tree. I got up to peak out the window and I couldn't stop the smile luminating my face--the nest was filled with little baby birds and the mom was feeding them! I've never seen such an amazing part of nature! I found myself going back to watch the little family, even in the days following.
Day 280 Went to get a manicure and pedicure (with a guilt-free coupon) and chose to claim the moment by closing my eyes during just relaxing in the massaging chair while getting my pedicure. Just blocking out the surroundings and really appreciating the moment left me refreshed and my body totally calm.
Lesson: appreciate the moment for what it is
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Snapshots Part One
(April 19-April 25)
Day 244 Mustered up the guts to call my landlord and give a friendly, yet firm, reminder to [finally] fix our mailboxes. (You know I don't like confrontation!)
Day 245 Our worship pastor recently made a request for new songs; So, I e-mailed him an mp3 of a worship song I wrote. You never know, right?
Day 246 First time singing on worship team--finally! Made a point to be nice to her even if she kept being cold back and take time to get to know the other singers. The warmth melted her and I had some great conversations! Then, went home and spent time praying for them.
Day 247 Driving out of the grocery store parkinglot, I viewed a huge pinky-orange globe floating in the sky. Pulled over and spent five minutes soaking in God's beautiful creation and praising Him. Amazing how God can romance our hearts through nature!
Day 248 Found out one of my choir boys who is now wonderful for me (after a rough beginnign of the year) is still a nightmare for all of his other teachers--swearing at them, refusing to do work, walking out. Pulled him from class for a half an hour and had a heart-to-heart. Spoke to the assistant principal directly after per his request. I know I made a difference.
Day 249 First time singing in front of the church (Saturday night service). The presence of Jesus was so strong I was crying through much of the worship. Claim? Worship with a pure heart and don't worry about what others would think.
Day 250 Right before the Sunday morning service, our worship pastor pulled the worship team aside and criticized us on engaging the congregation. AND, he added the other rude girl to sing with us sopranos without her even practicing with us. Claim? Initiate as much conversation with her as possible and be a blessing. By the end, she chose to stand by me and after the service thanked me, saying "Thank you! You really helped me with my part!" This is huge--she never flatters/compliments and barely even smiles.
Lesson: take the time!
Day 244 Mustered up the guts to call my landlord and give a friendly, yet firm, reminder to [finally] fix our mailboxes. (You know I don't like confrontation!)
Day 245 Our worship pastor recently made a request for new songs; So, I e-mailed him an mp3 of a worship song I wrote. You never know, right?
Day 246 First time singing on worship team--finally! Made a point to be nice to her even if she kept being cold back and take time to get to know the other singers. The warmth melted her and I had some great conversations! Then, went home and spent time praying for them.
Day 247 Driving out of the grocery store parkinglot, I viewed a huge pinky-orange globe floating in the sky. Pulled over and spent five minutes soaking in God's beautiful creation and praising Him. Amazing how God can romance our hearts through nature!
Day 248 Found out one of my choir boys who is now wonderful for me (after a rough beginnign of the year) is still a nightmare for all of his other teachers--swearing at them, refusing to do work, walking out. Pulled him from class for a half an hour and had a heart-to-heart. Spoke to the assistant principal directly after per his request. I know I made a difference.
Day 249 First time singing in front of the church (Saturday night service). The presence of Jesus was so strong I was crying through much of the worship. Claim? Worship with a pure heart and don't worry about what others would think.
Day 250 Right before the Sunday morning service, our worship pastor pulled the worship team aside and criticized us on engaging the congregation. AND, he added the other rude girl to sing with us sopranos without her even practicing with us. Claim? Initiate as much conversation with her as possible and be a blessing. By the end, she chose to stand by me and after the service thanked me, saying "Thank you! You really helped me with my part!" This is huge--she never flatters/compliments and barely even smiles.
Lesson: take the time!
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Coming Back, Listed Simply (Days 230-236)
Day 230: Chose to speak in utter honesty with my brother and his wife about my dating life and personal struggles.
Day 231: Bought gifts for the music pastor and music secretary at much church as a thank you for all they do.
Day 232: Answered the call of a girl friend that I knew could be a long conversation (even though I was tired) and seized an invitation to go out for dinner.
Day 233: Delivered the gifts to Pastor Tim and the music secretary and pushed back the cowardice approach of just "dropping them off." Enjoyed watching them open the gifts infront of me.
Day 234: Left a message turning down a Saturday evening invitation to meet a friend and her husband for dinner, but then the claim mentality set in and I called back two seconds later leaving a message with a better time to meet up (which happend to be a "big sacrifice" for me as I'm jealous over my Saturday afternoons)!
Day 235: Finally did that errand that I kept writing post-its about: picked up my bridesmaid dress!
Day 236: The whole weekend I was struggling and stressing as I attempted to figure out how to do my taxes alone (I own my own business which makes it more complicated). Today I decided, "No more stressing. You can do this. Believe in yourself." And I did. Without stress. If I can do this, I can do anything!!!
Lesson: perspective and happiness is always a choice
Day 231: Bought gifts for the music pastor and music secretary at much church as a thank you for all they do.
Day 232: Answered the call of a girl friend that I knew could be a long conversation (even though I was tired) and seized an invitation to go out for dinner.
Day 233: Delivered the gifts to Pastor Tim and the music secretary and pushed back the cowardice approach of just "dropping them off." Enjoyed watching them open the gifts infront of me.
Day 234: Left a message turning down a Saturday evening invitation to meet a friend and her husband for dinner, but then the claim mentality set in and I called back two seconds later leaving a message with a better time to meet up (which happend to be a "big sacrifice" for me as I'm jealous over my Saturday afternoons)!
Day 235: Finally did that errand that I kept writing post-its about: picked up my bridesmaid dress!
Day 236: The whole weekend I was struggling and stressing as I attempted to figure out how to do my taxes alone (I own my own business which makes it more complicated). Today I decided, "No more stressing. You can do this. Believe in yourself." And I did. Without stress. If I can do this, I can do anything!!!
Lesson: perspective and happiness is always a choice
The Abyss Part 4 (Days 223-229)
Day 223: Today while visiting my parents I read an entire book in one sitting--I started it in bed and didn't put it down until I finished it at 1:00am; What a wonderful escape! It was fun to find adventure, suspense, and romance in a novel again.
Day 224: My parents didn't have a lot of money was I was little, so we always had to take super short showers (Yes, my dad would time us!). My parents no longer have to worry about this, but when I'm home sometimes I still put guilt on myself if my shower seems too long. Today, still fighting a temperature and achiness, I decided to take a long shower even thought I was at my parents and just enjoy it. It felt so good!
Day 225: I don't like confrontation. By now, you know this! Today at Kohl's I found an adorable decor pillow for my couch in the exact color and style I've been looking for. Knowing it would complete my search, and noticing that it was on the "super discount" shelf, I grabbed it. As I made my way to the counter, I noticed the price was not adjusted on the red tag on the pillow, I mustered up the guts to explain where I'd found it and ask for a deal. When the cashier typed in a 50% discount, I took a deep breath and reminded her that I'd found it on the 75-80% off shelf and that it had a tiny stain on the corner. She pused a few buttons and said, "Your total is $6.78" I couldn't believe it! It was a $30 pillow. I left for home swelling with joy and pride that I DID IT! I took a chance and got a GREAT deal!
Day 226: Today a girl friend invited me to go get pedicures with her and some of her friends, and after double checking with her that the price would not be over $20, I told her to count me in. My claim came after my toenails were a beautiful fucia color and my friend, who had just paid for her, said "I'm sorry--I guess it's $30!". Stress. I felt a tigthening in my heart. I had told her that I had a coupon at home for another spa that got me a pedicure AND manicure for a total of $30 and she reassured me that the price would be $20. I took a few deep breaths and claimed a stress-free perspective. And, when she wanted me to join them for breakfast I decided to lay down my penny pinching for the sake of fellowship and getting to know her friends. We shared our some of our testimonies and life stories over breakfast. Thank you, Lord, for helping us see things in a balanced perspective!
Day 227: I love nature. Today I finally made it to the store and bought a hard-core bird feeder for the blossoming tree outside my kitchen window. I filled it and waited expectantly for my first visitors.
Day 228: Somtimes it's hard to be vulnerable. Tonight I had dear friends come visit from Milwaukee--a couple that I haven't seen in almost a year! Sitting across the patio table at one of my favorite restaurants, a moment of truth came up. I knew I needed to be honest and vulnerable about where I'm at with singleness and my present struggles. It opened up a very encouraging personal conversation that gave me renewed hope and inspiration! After they left, I kept thinking how glad I was that I just opened up and laid my sould bare.
Day 229: My cell phone rang and I just didn't feel like answering. I had gotten home from work shortly before and was just sitting down to eat a snack and relax. After a few rings I knew I needed to claim the moment, so picked up with a chipper "hello." Little did I know the blessing on the other end. One of the youth kids that I've mentored and been friends with for several years began, through choked back tears, to express his thanks for my guidance and help all these years. He had simply called to say thank you! I was so glad I'd answered his call!!
Lesson: just go for it--what are you waiting for?
Day 224: My parents didn't have a lot of money was I was little, so we always had to take super short showers (Yes, my dad would time us!). My parents no longer have to worry about this, but when I'm home sometimes I still put guilt on myself if my shower seems too long. Today, still fighting a temperature and achiness, I decided to take a long shower even thought I was at my parents and just enjoy it. It felt so good!
Day 225: I don't like confrontation. By now, you know this! Today at Kohl's I found an adorable decor pillow for my couch in the exact color and style I've been looking for. Knowing it would complete my search, and noticing that it was on the "super discount" shelf, I grabbed it. As I made my way to the counter, I noticed the price was not adjusted on the red tag on the pillow, I mustered up the guts to explain where I'd found it and ask for a deal. When the cashier typed in a 50% discount, I took a deep breath and reminded her that I'd found it on the 75-80% off shelf and that it had a tiny stain on the corner. She pused a few buttons and said, "Your total is $6.78" I couldn't believe it! It was a $30 pillow. I left for home swelling with joy and pride that I DID IT! I took a chance and got a GREAT deal!
Day 226: Today a girl friend invited me to go get pedicures with her and some of her friends, and after double checking with her that the price would not be over $20, I told her to count me in. My claim came after my toenails were a beautiful fucia color and my friend, who had just paid for her, said "I'm sorry--I guess it's $30!". Stress. I felt a tigthening in my heart. I had told her that I had a coupon at home for another spa that got me a pedicure AND manicure for a total of $30 and she reassured me that the price would be $20. I took a few deep breaths and claimed a stress-free perspective. And, when she wanted me to join them for breakfast I decided to lay down my penny pinching for the sake of fellowship and getting to know her friends. We shared our some of our testimonies and life stories over breakfast. Thank you, Lord, for helping us see things in a balanced perspective!
Day 227: I love nature. Today I finally made it to the store and bought a hard-core bird feeder for the blossoming tree outside my kitchen window. I filled it and waited expectantly for my first visitors.
Day 228: Somtimes it's hard to be vulnerable. Tonight I had dear friends come visit from Milwaukee--a couple that I haven't seen in almost a year! Sitting across the patio table at one of my favorite restaurants, a moment of truth came up. I knew I needed to be honest and vulnerable about where I'm at with singleness and my present struggles. It opened up a very encouraging personal conversation that gave me renewed hope and inspiration! After they left, I kept thinking how glad I was that I just opened up and laid my sould bare.
Day 229: My cell phone rang and I just didn't feel like answering. I had gotten home from work shortly before and was just sitting down to eat a snack and relax. After a few rings I knew I needed to claim the moment, so picked up with a chipper "hello." Little did I know the blessing on the other end. One of the youth kids that I've mentored and been friends with for several years began, through choked back tears, to express his thanks for my guidance and help all these years. He had simply called to say thank you! I was so glad I'd answered his call!!
Lesson: just go for it--what are you waiting for?
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Day 79 Simplicity from China
Small group night.
Do I go?
What about my heart?
What about the body of Christ?
The Lord helped me put them first.
It was wonderful!
A couple doing missions work in China
(and home on furlow)
visited,
and shared.
She is Chinese,
he is American,
and they were full of the Light of Jesus Christ!
Just hearing them talk,
and seeing her simplicity,
gentleness,
and glow,
stirred a hunger for Him in me.
Lesson: take time to FIND Him. take time to KNOW Him. trust Him with my life.
Do I go?
What about my heart?
What about the body of Christ?
The Lord helped me put them first.
It was wonderful!
A couple doing missions work in China
(and home on furlow)
visited,
and shared.
She is Chinese,
he is American,
and they were full of the Light of Jesus Christ!
Just hearing them talk,
and seeing her simplicity,
gentleness,
and glow,
stirred a hunger for Him in me.
Lesson: take time to FIND Him. take time to KNOW Him. trust Him with my life.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Day 49 Coffee Counseling
Have you ever held on when you should've let go?
We broke up 5 months ago.
He's finally let go.
Why do I have tears when I should just trust God?
I am tired of being strong.
I'm tired of trying to make it through on my own.
(well, with the Lord, of course)
I decided it was time to call a friend.
We met at Caribou Coffee and it was just what I needed!
The heaviness lifted as we laughed,
shared, prayed,
and encouraged one another.
Thank you, Lord, for sisters in Christ!
Lesson: sometimes we just can't do it on our own
We broke up 5 months ago.
He's finally let go.
Why do I have tears when I should just trust God?
I am tired of being strong.
I'm tired of trying to make it through on my own.
(well, with the Lord, of course)
I decided it was time to call a friend.
We met at Caribou Coffee and it was just what I needed!
The heaviness lifted as we laughed,
shared, prayed,
and encouraged one another.
Thank you, Lord, for sisters in Christ!
Lesson: sometimes we just can't do it on our own
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